i never thought id ever feel as good as i have now
and ill forever chase that feeling though i know its hardly found
for all the little parts of me
that cant forget the heart in me
need to take a breather and just enjoy the harmony
and if it fails to last or even falls to lust
ill be strong enough to let it go, we never breached our trust
against every better judgement im still chasing this roughness
the question is will i be strong enough to ever cut this
we've all been scarred before, some more than others
we can block out all our lovers and not let any one in
but im yet to disconnect when i chose who i will smother
(another reason why we might be wrong for one another)
but how vain of me though, to think that i can change you?
to think that you can fall for me and change the way you play you?
it really shows naivety but i have quickly snapped out
its not like im sixteen and want my feelings rapped out
if anything theyre baked in, caked with all the patience
that can only be described as something that i cannot trade in
i really have to say though, the hardest thing to deal with:
you holding me all night and waking telling me to beat it
it wasnt the first time for me and it wont be the last
and i know i can't complain, you've been hurt more in the past
but that doesn't explain why you feel no need to change
you haven't found the right one and fuck i feel the same
i just feel you need to let go, 'let the right one in'
the way you held me says more than your cheeky grin
the times i turned away from you and felt you grab me back
had all the passion i expected from a girl who loved me back
but what would i know?
i've never been with girls for fun
if anyones in my bed a relationships begun
so every single thing i felt for you that made me lose sleep
could be nothing more than hormones charging through me booze deep
that's exactly what i wanted to test and meet you sober
i could hardly believe when you invited yourself over
but by that point we were blind again and judgement was keeling
but we squeeled our way through once more with feeling
and for some reason all our clothes refrained from peeling off
i was merely inches away from fuckin' beating off
god forbid a hotter dish would offer me their bottom lip
and even then i might have trouble finding where the logic is
cause im as fucked as any other human on this planet
and it seems like somethings wrong with me if i dont sleep with you dammit

whats wrong with us when we get loose to be ourselves
so many insecurities that keep us all shelved
and its contageous, spreading with every new daughter or son
who cant stand the image that they see in morning sun
wake the fuck up really youre all beautiful
you're no unique snowflake but to love yourself is dutiful

spent half my life behind computers, how was i to suit her?
met her off my face and all but now i think she's cuter
now these words'll make you puke, yeah i can already tell
it's not the shit you wanna hear from this empty shell
see that sunny saturday seemed surreal as all fuck
its a shame you felt the need to approach me, balled up
but truly i would never change a thing if i could turn back all that time
and have another little stab at it again.
im starting to think, love is a construct of the mind
that tricks us into thinking that the world is all sublime
in reality that inkling in the back of minds to seep your juice
is simply biologic sense telling us to reproduce
so can i turn it off? i dunno, one way to find out
throw away emotions and fuck like rabbits. i count,
two times and ill be way more attached then ever
you'll throw mud on my face and expect me to live forever
the question is it worth the risk i think my answers yes
if anything itll make me stronger and make me feel blessed
everyone i know is strictly telling me to stay away
i hear what theyre all saying k but none of them were there that day
and even though i know i throw heaps more into everything
than needed; god all this shit sounds so conceded....